This past Wednesday, I celebrated my 19th birthday. My three best friends decided to blindfold me and take me to surprise destinations. Over the past few weeks, they must have been listening to me and my secret desires because they surely knew where to take me. We started the night at boba (which I am obsessed with), and then they rented a private karaoke room where I lived out my girl group dreams. After, they took me to ride a mechanical bull, which has been on my bucket list for years now. I ended night hanging out with some friends, and I'd be lying if I didn't go to sleep until 3AM, but it was so worth it. So here it is, my birthday:
2. Eating healthy is not a diet; it's a lifestyle. And guess what? It is possible. Stop making excuses!
3. Do not apologize for being an independent, badass bitch. Do you girl, and run this world. 4. Take time for yourself. Pamper yourself. Treat yo' self. 5. Sometimes, you can't always expect people to be perfect. Just like you, they make mistakes. 6. Don't be afraid of being fearless. What is the worst that can happen? I almost find it fun to make fun of myself after I've screwed up. 7. Sometimes you'll work your butt off, and it won't pay off. That's okay. 8. In life, there is no destination; it is all a journey. Sometimes you just have to let things happen. 9. Don't wait for Friday. Don't wait for summer. Don't wait to graduate school. Live in the now, especially if you have a fear of time, like myself. 10. Boba almost always fixes everything, almost. 11. Everything happens when you least expect this. This is so incredibly cliche, but I have waaaay to many experiences to prove it true. Sometimes you just have to forget about stuff, and they will happen at their own pace. 12. Being loved or cared for does not only come in the forms of "I love you" and "I care you." (You can read my last lifestyle post on more insight about that.) 13. It doesn't matter if you wear lots of makeup, or no makeup at all. I always thought it was a sin to wear a lot of makeup, especially during my year long period of really bad acne. I stopped wearing make-up because of the whole "I woke up like this" trend, but hell, I love my foundation to much so screw it. 14. Sometimes a good cry is necessary. It doesn't and shouldn't make you feel powerless. It is you being a human. 15. Speak up. Speak up when your feelings were hurt. Speak up when you feel strongly about something. Speak up when you rather have a chocolate cupcake rather than a vanilla cupcake. You have a voice for a reason. 16. In combination with luck, work hard. While you should let things go with the flow in life in order to find your "destiny," you also need to have goals and ambitions in order to help guide you in finding your destiny. 17. Don't be mean to girls. For crying out loud, men are against us and now even our own type is against us? No wonder there is still a battle against equality for both men and women. 18. Remember the little quirks about people. You can't imagine how happy it makes them when you pick up on the things they do. One of my favorite things I like to hear is when people tell me that they thought of me when they saw something and such. 19. Be kind. This is pretty simple. Yesterday was shitty. Nothing was wrong, yet nothing was necessarily right. You know that feeling when you're not alone, yet you feel so incredibly lonely? I guess that is how I was feeling, and for someone who doesn't really like to talk about her immediate feelings with people, I tend to explode at the last minute, often scaring my friends and having them think that I am an absolute nutcase for crying randomly. I like to compare it to a ticking time bomb, and yesterday, I exploded when I was simply just in a room with my friends.
Growing up, I bounced from friend group to friend group, however my role as the "mom" always stayed the same. However, as I got older, I felt taken advantage of for being to nice or caring. I never felt like the love or care was being 100% reciprocated, which is important in a friendship. An incredibly toxic friendship my senior year of high school made me into someone who always felt like the bad guy in any situation, no matter who was at fault. To this day, it is difficult for me to think about myself first and do what is best for me in trying times between friends. I always thought being loved and cared for came in two forms: "I love you." and "I care you." However, I realized yesterday that being loved and cared is beyond all of that. Being loved and cared for is having your roommate tell you that it pains her to see you upset. Being loved and cared for is having one of my very first friends at Chapman recognize the sadness in my face and suggest to go outside for a walk to talk. Being loved and cared for is having my best guy friend play "Shake It Off" by Taylor Swift on the car ride to boba because he knows that song makes me dance. Being loved and cared for is having my two best girl friends make me laugh until I'm falling off their bed. And everything that just listed happened in a span of two hours, and quite honestly, I can't even comprehend how overwhelming that is to me. There are so many unique ways to say you love or care for someone, and last night, I realized that this is the best I've ever had it. I wanted to keep this short and sweet, but I hope it speaks volume and has taught you something. There are people out there who care for you and love you in more ways than you think. Sometimes being loved and cared for is as sample as being asked "Did you have enough to eat today?" or "I'll call you later so we can catch up." |
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